tangratara
no ordinary moments
jazzed
I suddenly find myself awed by the power of people. Not the great big angry corrupting power, but the simple day to day power.
Last night was the culmination of three days of events, or actually, really of about four years of events. And it didn't end quite the way I wanted it to. And the apathy really really sucked.
At about 9 o'clock, I went for a 30 minute walk around my town just to clear my head. As soon as I got back, I was surrounded by people. Not literally, of course, but through IMs and texts. Cody and Doug immediately started talking me through it. Skylar, who only got meager details, was totally ready to flatter me into grinning a few dozen times. Derik, having no clue what happened at all, asked if something was wrong and what he could do.
But here's the kicker. I hadn't told Sheldie the most recent events, but he sent me a song saying it would "fix me." When I tried to protest accepting it, all he said was "ahem". So I listened to it. And it happened to be, not something punk rock like I'd expect from Sheldie, but an 8 minute jazz piece. And it did. It fixed me. I asked him how he knew it would, and he just said, "I'm your brother. I know."
Basically - I was happy and healthy and feeling human again by midnight, three hours after everything came crashing down. And I was content with what had happened. I was almost glad that it HAD happened. I got over it several hours before I expected to. And it was easy. And I'm not even a little spooked anymore.
And it was all due to the power of people, most of whom who had no idea was had happened.
So - thanks.
Last night was the culmination of three days of events, or actually, really of about four years of events. And it didn't end quite the way I wanted it to. And the apathy really really sucked.
At about 9 o'clock, I went for a 30 minute walk around my town just to clear my head. As soon as I got back, I was surrounded by people. Not literally, of course, but through IMs and texts. Cody and Doug immediately started talking me through it. Skylar, who only got meager details, was totally ready to flatter me into grinning a few dozen times. Derik, having no clue what happened at all, asked if something was wrong and what he could do.
But here's the kicker. I hadn't told Sheldie the most recent events, but he sent me a song saying it would "fix me." When I tried to protest accepting it, all he said was "ahem". So I listened to it. And it happened to be, not something punk rock like I'd expect from Sheldie, but an 8 minute jazz piece. And it did. It fixed me. I asked him how he knew it would, and he just said, "I'm your brother. I know."
Basically - I was happy and healthy and feeling human again by midnight, three hours after everything came crashing down. And I was content with what had happened. I was almost glad that it HAD happened. I got over it several hours before I expected to. And it was easy. And I'm not even a little spooked anymore.
And it was all due to the power of people, most of whom who had no idea was had happened.
So - thanks.
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